Monday, July 2, 2012

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Pick me up a few friends at the store.

I plunked my snack-sized container of caramel yogurt down on the conveyor belt at Migros and had just started trying to make sense of the Swiss Francs in my hand when I heard it.
“Bir şey unuttuk mu?”  Did we forget anything?  
Turkish!  The little old lady in front of me was speaking Turkish!  I’d only been out of the country for four hours but already the sound of the language of my second-home did something to my soon-to-be-homesick heart.  
I eyed the woman in the beige headscarf and her husband in his khaki cap, going back and forth in my head about whether or not to talk to them as the cashier rang up their groceries.  Will they think it’s great that I’m from Turkey, too, or will they just think I’m crazy for Turk-stalking in the Zurich airport?  Should I just let them shop in peace?
My “I’m one of you and I want you to know it” instinct won out.  It always does.
I touched the woman’s arm and asked her in Turkish, “Teyze, are you Turkish?”
She turned to me with wide eyes, clearly baffled as to how this much-more-Swiss-than-Turkish-looking girl knew her mother tongue.  
“Yes, canım, I am.  Are you?”
I smiled.  “No, but I’ve lived there for six years, so it’s practically home.”
She patted my arm, her eyes twinkling now, and told me how they were from Konya but had lived in Switzerland for years.  After the standard, “What are you doing in Turkey?” conversation came the almost standard question of “Which is more beautiful - Canada or Turkey?” to which I always reply, “They both are beautiful in different ways, but if I didn’t love your country so much, I would’ve gone home a long time ago!”  (This always satisfies them because I neither insult their homeland nor betray my own.  Canadians are nothing if not diplomatic.)
The cashier had moved on to my purchase by now, and as the slow-moving old amca (uncle) finished bagging their groceries, he shuffled closer to see what had gotten his wife so excited.   I paid my 89 cents and as we walked out into the concourse together, the woman filled her husband in on our conversation.
“We’re here to pick up our grandkids.  They’re coming from Turkey to stay for the summer,” he explained proudly.
Gözünüz aydın,” I replied.  (“May your eyes be bright” is the phrase said to someone being reunited with a loved one.)
“Ah!  You even know that!  You are just like a Turk!” he laughed.  “Canım, what is your name?”
I gave him my Turkish one.  
A smile lit up his wrinkled features.  “So you have become a Muslim, then!”
I laughed.  “No, it’s just easier for Turks to say than my real one.”
Taking my hand and patting it in a grandfatherly way, he launched into the pleasantries one must recite upon parting - “So nice to meet you, Go with God, Say hello to your family.”  
But his wife was clearly not through with this “kind-faced foreigner who knows our language” and kept peppering me with questions even after I’d kissed both her cheeks in farewell.    
“Where are you headed?  Do you have someone meeting you at the train station?  Are you sure your mother or father aren’t Turkish?”  
I happily answered all her questions.  As a Canadian who’s worked so hard at “becoming a Turk” and often feels like a foreigner when I return to my homeland, I was thoroughly relishing this “you’re one of us” moment.  And as a minority living in a land not their own, I have a feeling these two were enjoying the connection just as much.  
When her true Turkish teyze curiosity had been satisfied and more kisses dispensed, they headed for the arrivals deck while I headed for the escalator to the train station, all the while more “selams” to each other’s families being called out in both directions. 
I used to roll my eyes when my mom would talk to anyone and everyone in the checkout line.  Now I’m convinced she’s onto something.  And I know a couple of Turkish immigrants who I think would agree.

Monday, July 02, 2012 - No comments

Swiss-ing Gears




(from Tuesday, June 26th, on the plane)
Today I’ll finally see a long-held dream come true:  to eat Swiss chocolate in Switzerland!  Granted, I think the original wording on my list was “to eat Swiss chocolate on a picnic in the Alps,” but I think this definitely still counts.  On top of that, I’ll finally “deserve” the Starbucks Switzerland mug a friend brought me back from his trip to Europe ten years ago.  
This is the perfect “See the World on a Layover” day - 23 hours on the ground, minus a few for stowing my suitcase at the left luggage place and a few more for getting to the airport on time for my flight home tomorrow.  But the train and tram to my hotel look straightforward enough (this is, after all, Switzerland’s famed rain network - I expect it to run like, well, clockwork) and after a quick change into my cute new (and hopefully European-looking) dress, I should have plenty of time to explore Aldstadt (Old Town) and take lots of pictures.  
I’m meeting my friend Tina, who lives there, at 5:30 at the Hauptbahnhof (main train station.)  I think the idea of showing up in a cool European city and rendezvous-ing with someone under one of those big “meeting point” thingies in a crowded station is fun.  We’ll head somewhere yummy for dinner and then hopefully go somewhere cute for coffee, if it’s not too late.  The coffee is the part I’m most looking forward to.  To quote Dorcas Lane from Larkrise to Candleford, “Sidewalk cafes are my one weakness.”  :)
And then, after what I hope will be a good night’s sleep, I plan to get up early and roam the Aldstadt some more, as well as sit down at some charming bakery-cafe for pastries and coffee.  And, of course, somewhere in there will be the purchase of truffles.  Perhaps multiple times.
I’m always grateful for these “transition days” when I’m neither in Turkey nor at home, but just “out in the world.”  Helps me catch my breath and switch gears.  A little “espresso” in between the worlds of “Turkish coffee” and “Starbucks on every corner” is a very useful thing.  Not to mention a tasty one.

Monday, July 02, 2012 - No comments

My Life in Dolmuş Stops


Public transit in Turkey can be awfully confusing if you aren’t a local.  
Ferries and trains are logical enough, and buses in the bigger cities have made it harder for out-of-towners to get lost, with their fancy TV screens announcing upcoming stops.  But dolmuşes are another story.  
A dolmuş is (at least in Istanbul - it varies from city to city) a big yellow “shared taxi” that runs along a specific route and generally doesn’t go until its eight seats are full.  (The name “dolmuş” itself means “full” or “stuffed.”)  Fare is determined by how far you are going, so you have to tell the driver where you are getting off ahead of time.  When a dolmuş starts its route, the sound of the key in the ignition sparks a flurry of money being passed to the driver, along with shouts of “Two for Üsküdar!” and “How much to Bağlarbaşı?”  
When I first moved to Istanbul and was still trying to memorize the phrase, “At a convenient spot, could you please let me off?”, I used to always make a beeline for the back of the dolmuş.  That was the only spot where a non-Turkish speaker could remain passively safe.  The middle bench was the worst.  If you sat there, all the people in the back would pass their money to you and tell you where they were headed, and it was your job to pass this information on to the driver, and then hand the person’s change back.  Not knowing the names of all the stops, compounded by the occasional “mouth full of marbles” accent and the fact that I didn’t know how to say, “Could you please repeat that?”, it was easy to turn “Zeynep Kamil” into “Zen Camel,” incurring a bewildered look from the driver and frustration from the passenger whose money it was.  
A few months into living there, though, not only was I more confident in my Turkish, but I’d memorized the names of all the stops on my usual route and could shuttle coins and change back and forth with the best of them. I especially prided myself on the fact that when a “foreigner” or someone from out of town asked for directions, I was able to help them out.  I even started sitting in the middle seat on purpose.  On a bad “cultural confidence” day it could be a real morale booster.
A recent trip to Izmir, the country’s third largest city, found me riding a lot of dolmuşes on my own as I visited friends in different parts of town.  My now-close-to-fluent Turkish helped a bit, but I found myself back in that place of having to pass money up for people going to places I’d never heard of, and once again, I felt a little like a country-bumpkin in the big city.  
It was a relief then to head from Izmir to Istanbul and, once again, be back on my own familiar dolmuş turf.  I may not have lived there for five years, but that Kadıköy - Üsküdar dolmuş route is still second nature to me.  The prices have changed, but the stops are the same, and being able to courageously plop down in the middle seat and take an active role in the functioning of “the system” still gives me great pleasure.   
It was during that trip, as I took a dolmuş to Üsküdar to catch a bus up the Bosphorus, it hit me that the reason I know that route so well is that it is a veritable memory lane - a historical map of one of the best years of my life, and all the visits that have followed.  Nearly every stop holds some significance for me - either because it’s at the head of a street where a friend lives or it’s a sentimental landmark of some noteworthy Istanbul experience.
And so, here you have it:  my Istanbul life in dolmuş stops.  
My dolmuş runs along a 20 minute (depending on traffic) stretch of the Asian side of the city.  It leaves the Kadıköy iskelesi (ferry docks), passing the grand old Haydarpaşa train station and squeezes out into the craziness of Rıhtım Street’s traffic.  It dips under the train tracks and passes the spot where, until last year, the “Have you brushed your teeth today” billboard always sat.  Right about here is the wall with the “Amerika defol” (America, get out of here”) graffiti, usually accompanied by assorted posters advertising meeting of the Communist Party of Turkey.  This is the spot where, walking home from a doctor’s appointment a few years ago, I got caught in a protest march in which people from out east were carrying placards demanding education in their own language and had to make a quick exit passed the water cannons down a side street before things got heated, as they always do.  
Turning left, the route swings past Tepe Nautilus - aka “The Carrefour Mall” - where we used to put our language books through the metal detector and meet up with friends after school or on the weekend.  I’d always get a Beef n’ Cheddar from Arby’s (luxury!) and sneak it onto a table at Pizza Hut while everyone else downed their all-you-can-eat pizza.  It was here, too, that a friend once arrived to meet us in tears because she’d been followed all the way from her house by some creeper.  Adding to the frustration of the situation was the fact that, in her stressed state, her Turkish had gotten jumbled and she’d thrown a few extra letters onto a word, repeatedly telling him, “Don’t leave me!” instead of “Get lost!”
After the mall comes what I think of as the “sacrifice district” - a series of several roadside stalls where one can purchase a sheep or lamb to kill for the annual Sacrifice Festival or as a thank offering for a new job/car/baby.  My favourite was the one ram who, in the summer, always had his own sun umbrella to keep him cool while he waited to die.  
Next comes the “hospital district” - several public and military hospitals in a row - juxtaposed, ironically, by the Karacaahmet Graveyard.  It’s the largest in the city - so sprawling that several major roads cut right through the middle of it.  Both of my “grandparents” on my Turkish mom’s side are buried here, making it the cause of visits on religious holidays to pray and water the flowers.  I’ve always loved exploring this graveyard and its fascinating Ottoman gravestones with their pre-Ataturk Arabic script and funny headdresses.  I was alarmed once a few years back to read in the paper that some “revolutionaries” had hid amongst the graves and used this as a launching spot to fire a rocket at the nearby Selimiye Army Barracks.  I haven’t gone “exploring” there since.  
The stop at the last gate of the graveyard is Kapı Ağası, marked by a Byzantine-era pillar from what I assume was an aqueduct.  This is where we used to get off to go to lessons at our language helper’s first house.  Then comes Zeynep Kamil, through which one dolmuş driver took a detour to avoid a traffic jam.  It was raining like crazy and, in all our confusion over the fact that we’d veered off our known route, we forgot the container of “Sin in the Camp” (a wickedly yummy dessert made almost entirely from precious imported ingredients) we were taking to a party at our helper’s house.  Much weeping and gnashing of teeth followed.  
Next is Askerlik Şübesi, where soldiers with poised rifles sit bored behind sandbags while nervous young men line up on the street to register for their compulsory military service.  From here, we’d walk down past the carwash and some saint or other’s grave to the building where our language helper lived next.  And then one more stop up is Pazarbaşı, where I’d stop and pick up a few of those little dill and cream cheese-filled pastries and walk down to the house where that same language helper lived for the majority of our time in Istanbul.  She’s moved again since and is no longer on this dolmuş route.  Which is fine, since I am no longer taking lessons from her.  The commute to Istanbul would be a little much.  
Bağlar Başı is where we used to get off to walk down the hill to the friend’s house where we all lived at one point or another before moving in with our Turkish families.  Once, a certain friend (who shall remain nameless) commented on the pleasant sound of rushing water beneath the street, thinking it was an underground spring.  Had the smell of the sewer wafted up through the grate at that moment, she might not have found it so charming.  We didn’t let her live that one down for awhile.  (Okay, we still haven’t.)  
That neighbourhood and the house on Tıknefes Sokak (“Out of Breath” Street) bring back all the anticipation and unknown of those first weeks living in Turkey, when my new life stretched before me and I had no idea how to jump in.  I remember the smell of the hand soap in the bathroom, the sound of the whistle throughout the night that let us know the guard was patrolling the streets, and our first attempts at making breakfast burritos without tortillas.  We’ve got a bottle of that same soap in our downstairs bathroom now, and every time I wash my hands a great sense of newness and possibility instantly comes over me.  Funny how smells trigger memories like that.
The dolmuş takes a right at Bağlar Başı, heading uphill between the Islamic Theological Seminary on the right and the Orthodox Church and “Infidel Cemetery” on the left.  Just past the mosque is Capitol, the mall with the Krispy Kreme (!) and the Chinese noodle place.  (Can you see why I miss living there?)  
At the mall, you take a left down that little side street where the drivers always fuss about letting people off cuz it makes for a tricky lane change, and then take another left and head down the hill towards the water.  A ways down is the spot where the old AK Party headquarters used to be, where for an entire election summer the Prime Minister’s face loomed larger than life, accompanied by the slogan “Durmak yok, yola devam!”  (“No stopping!  Stay the course!”) which has since become a phrase I like to whip out at opportune moments to make Turks laugh.  
It’s at this same corner, just off the main road, that I went to my first Turkish wedding.  The guy I bought my cell phone from was getting married, and our common friend (my language helper’s husband) thought I’d enjoy the cultural experience.  What I remember most about the night was how irritated I was that only the wedding facility’s photographer was allowed to take pictures and how my shoes hurt my feet so much at the end of the night that I walked barefoot most of the way home.  
Down the hill just past the Kuruçeşme stop is the “religious grocery store” where being covered seemed to be a prerequisite for being a cashier.  Across from that is the building where I once saw a body on the ground covered in a white sheet.  I never did find out if it was a jumper or a murder.  I didn’t want to ask.
The lights at Fıstıkağacı were my first reference point after moving to the city.  If I could find them, I could find home.  That was “my stop” when I stayed with a friend my first few weeks there, and became mine again when I housesat for a friend (same intersection, different house) the summer before I moved away.  I remember being so proud of myself when I first learned how to say, “Please let me off at the lights.”  
Down a ways on the right is that impossibly steep staircase that I always enjoyed running down on my way to school in the morning that last summer.  I wasn’t so fond of climbing it again at the end of the day, though  - especially not in August.  (But, oh, the calf muscles I had when I lived in Istanbul!)  I always felt so bad for the old ladies living at the top of that hill.  Maybe one day they’ll put in an escalator.  
From there, the dolmuş passes the cargo place from where we mailed the bulk of our luggage when we moved to the south.  (And even then, the bus drivers complained about how many suitcases we were checking on.  They clearly don’t stockpile Thai sweet chili sauce and deodorant like I do.)
It’s just a few hundred metres from there down to Üsküdar, with its mosques and its Mado (fancy ice cream joint) and the iskele at which I’ve run for countless ferries.  From there, one can take another bus or dolmuş further up the coast or cross the Bosphorus to “the other side” (Europe) to see famous sites like the Blue Mosque, the Galata Tower and the Dolmabahçe Palace.  For the thousands of tourists that tour the city on a hop-on hop-off bus every year, those are the most memorable icons of Istanbul.  

But as for me, the symbols of the city I most prefer are the ones that can be seen out the window of a crowded yellow dolmuş.

Monday, June 25, 2012

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Summer Symphony


It’s that time of year again when life moves outside and the lines between “living room” and “balcony”, “my house” and “the whole neighbourhood” are blurred.  Windows forced open by the sticky heat usher in a breeze, and along with it every sound within a five-house radius.  Walls cease to exist, and everyone’s business becomes everyone’s business.  
I no longer need an alarm clock because if the sound of Ayşe Teyze unbolting the door as she heads off to Qu'ran class doesn’t wake me, the sound of the kid down the way yelling out the window to his grandma in the adjacent house to see if breakfast is ready surely will.  
The closure of school brought the influx of “the summer people”, doubling the number of voices echoing off the walls within our complex.  My morning quiet time is punctuated by Ayşe (the other Ayşe’s next door neighbour - common name here)  arguing with her four-year-old about what she’s going to wear, and in the afternoon, I can tell which neighbour is watching which soap opera and what the Prime Minister is preaching about today simply by tuning my ear to any of the four TV sets within earshot of my bed.
When I’m still trying to sleep or attempting to focus and be productive, the “communal background noise” can make me wish I weren’t a year-round dweller in what is, for most of the folks around me, a neighbourhood of summer houses.  
But then evening falls and the delicious smell of meat sizzling on someone’s grill mingles with the scent of our honeysuckle.  The clatter of silverware from the family eating dinner on a balcony in the building across from us blends with the voices of the guys in plastic chairs watching TV outside on the one below it.  The explosion of wedding fireworks evokes a chorus of bleating from the (terrified) sheep down the road.  
And as I sit here on my terrace, a big pot of Turkish tea by my side, I tinkle my spoon in accompaniment to the laughter and sanat music floating from the neighbours’ balcony across from us, and I can’t help but admit that “neighbourhood noise” on a Mediterranean summer night makes for my favourite kind of symphony.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

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Celebrity Stalking #3: Erdoğan Yaşaran




Istanbul may not be Turkey’s political capital (that would be Ankara), but it is most definitely the country’s cultural capital - our version of New York City - and pretty much anyone who’s anyone lives there.  It’s actually quite possible that I’ve passed many a famous person on Istanbul’s streets and just didn’t know they were famous.  But now, six years in and familiar with at least the most popular shows and actors, I think it’s about time I start running into them in coffee shops.

At the end of April, I had to go up to see my ear doctor for a check-up and I brought along Anna, a foreign friend who had yet to experience this great city.  I was determined that during our four days there, in between ogling palaces and touring mosques, I would spot someone I knew from TV.

On our second day, as we were standing at the base of the monolithic Galata Tower, I saw him.  He had sunglasses on, so I couldn’t see his eyes, but I was sure the bearded guy sitting with a friend at the sidewalk cafe was the actor who plays Erdoğan Yaşaran on “Fatmagül’ün Suçu Ne?”  He doesn’t usually have quite that full of a beard, but he’s been in jail for the past few episodes, so I figured he might be going for the scruffy look.  His clothes were pretty plain, and his shoes weren’t what I would call “actor-ish,” but maybe the sunglasses and the attire were just a disguise to keep fans from spoiling his day out.  The character he plays is pretty evil, so if I were him, I wouldn’t want anyone to recognize me either.


I wanted to get a photo to prove that I’d found my famous person, but I’d feel pretty silly saying, “Hi, I love your show but hate your character.  Are you really that big of a jerk in real life?  Can I take a picture with you?”  Plus, he was clearly trying not to be recognized.  So instead, I pulled the classic, “Hey, Anna, stand there so I can get a shot of you...with that famous guy in the background” move. 
(Wouldn't you have thought "Sunglasses Guy" was him?)
An hour or so later, after wandering Galata’s steep, colourful streets and stopping in for a latte break at Cherrybean Coffee, we made our way back up towards Istiklal Caddesi (Istanbul’s most famous shopping street) and passed by the Galata Tower once more.  We tried to be sly as we walked past the cafe where my celebrity had been sitting, but as I glanced to my left to see if he was still there, there he was!  
Or, rather, there he wasn’t.  The sunglasses had come off, and he was clearly not who I thought he was.  In fact, now he resembled a German tourist more than anything.
False alarm.  Close, but no cigar.
The next night, Anna and I were having dinner at the Meşale Restaurant in Sultanahmet.  Every night they have a whirling derviş come do his thing for the tourists.  Since you can only see the real thing during specific religious festivals, this is a good spot to go for a taste of the real thing.  We got a table right in front of the stage, and as we sat there eating our kebap, the show began.  
As Mr. Derviş entered his creepy trancelike state and began his whirling, all heads turned our direction to watch and all the cell phone cameras appeared.  At one point, I turned to get a look at the audience, and I almost choked on my meat. 
“Anna!”  I poked her.  “Don’t be too obvious, but isn’t that our non-celebrity two tables over?” 

She snuck a look.
“I think so, but I can’t tell, cuz I can only see his profile.”
I grabbed my camera.  “I haven’t erased yesterday’s pictures - I’ll check and see.”  
Sure enough, the proof was in the picture - the bald guy in the photo of my Erdoğan Yaşaran lookalike was the same friend sitting with him now, just a few feet away from us.  The fact that he was at this particular restaurant sealed it my mind:  he was most definitely a tourist.  And very likely not famous at all.  Except to us.  
We killed ourselves laughing, and then forced ourselves to calm down lest he recognize us and truly think we were stalking him.  When he and his buddy got up to pay a few minutes later, I halfway considered getting up and telling him the whole story, but decided that might open us up to a new friendship we didn’t really want.  Besides, he might not even speak English.  
So....I didn’t find my celebrity after all.  But finding the same non-celebrity twice in two days in a city of 15 million people counts for something, right?

Saturday, May 5, 2012

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Celebrity Stalking #2: Fatmagül's Cafe


Specimen #2 in our Celebrity Stalking Series is actually more a place than a person.  For the past two years I’ve been following the show “Fatmagülün Suçu Ne?” starring Beren Saat, one of my favourite Turkish actresses.  In the show, Fatmagül runs a cozy, colourful little cafe called Gül Mutfağı (“Rose Kitchen”), and I decided it would be fun to try to find it and either a) watch them filming or b) sit down for lunch and çay and spend the afternoon writing there.
Having looked up the cafe online, I knew that it was a  real restaurant (as opposed to a set) called Bodrum Mangal (Bodrum Grill), and while I couldn’t come up with the address, I knew the general district it was in, so off I went.  
I still wasn’t feeling particularly energetic after my surgery, and was in the no-longer-coughing-but-still-exhausted stage of a cold, so I decided to take it slow and spend a lot of the day sitting down.  (When you’re sitting beside the Bosphorus, “sitting” is a decidedly delightful activity!)  

I took the bus as far as Çengelköy, grabbed a cheese and herb poğaça (a kind of pastry) from Komşufırın (my preferred Istanbul bakery) and sat down for çay with a sea breeze at Çınaraltı Tea Garden.  (“Çınaraltı” means “under the plane tree”, and with its shaded courtyard opening onto a fabulous view of the Bosphorus and the first bridge, it’s a favourite spot for sitting and sipping.  It’s especially popular for weekend breakfasts because you can bring your own food - hence my poğaça.)
Having gathered my strength and satisfied my “strong tea and salty air” craving at Çınaraltı, I took the bus a few more miles down the coastal road and got off in Anadolu Hisarı.  The neighbourhood’s name means “Fortress of Asia”, and its main road runs right smack through the middle of a crumbling-but-imposing stone fortress built in the early years of the Ottoman Empire.  When the characters in “Fatmagülün Suçu Ne?” first moved to Istanbul, they lived in this area, and from what I could tell from my research, my quarry, the restaurant, was nearby, too.  
Now, I have to admit, I felt a little bit “starstruck schoolgirl-ish” going off in search of the restaurant where some of my favourite fictitious characters work, so I was hesitant to ask for directions lest I get laughed at.  But after having searched unsuccessfully for more than half an hour, I gave in and asked a few locals who all shrugged and said they had no idea.  By this time, I was getting tired and hungry, and I knew I’d need to eat before I walked anymore.  
Instead of eating the stuffed grape leaves and cheesy börek I’d been dreaming about ever since I’d Googled the Bodrum Mangal, I headed for the cafe next to the house where Fatmagül and her family used to live.  I’d been there before once while on a hunt similar to this one and, again, hadn’t been able to watch them shooting (the crew was just setting up) but had been excited to see the house and the set from the road.  A potter, Hasan Usta, has his workshop on the property and the yard is full of clay pots of every shape and size.  The house appears to be empty, but the plastic-tent-turned-cafe next door (fittingly named “Potter Hasan Usta’s Tea Garden”) seemed a good spot to fill my stomach as well as hopefully gain some information on where I might locate the actual object of my search.  
As I sat and ate my cheese and pepperoni toast, I laughed to myself when I heard two other customers ask the waitress if the house next door was indeed “Fatmagül’s house.”  She must get that all the time.  This made me feel all the more sheepish when, after paying, I asked her if she knew where the Bodrum Mangal was.  She smiled patiently and explained that she knew it was “up the hill that way and in a bit.”  I was slightly disappointed when she said it was about a half hour walk, or a bus ride plus a bit of a walk.  She wasn’t sure if the bus went exactly that way or if I’d have to get off and walk some more, and she couldn’t really tell me in which direction.
I decided to chance it with walking and set off up the hill, but after only about 20 feet, I stopped.  I was feeling weaker than I wanted to admit, and suddenly this hill wasn’t feeling like such a good idea, even if it did potentially have famous people and a pretty garden and good tea at the end of it.  
By the time I got up there, I’d have less than half an hour to sit before I’d need to leave and go home, and that’s IF I actually found it right away.  It was the previous day’s Ara Güler Dilemma all over again - to spend a whole lot of time trying to meet someone or see something famous (but possibly disappointing) or to spend time with Istanbul, the city for which I long whenever I’m away.  
Perhaps as much as my not feeling well, the thought that this was the last time I’d be able to sit by the Bosphorus before heading back home caused me to change direction and propelled me back down the hill to the water.  I get to see Fatmagül’s cafe every Thursday night at 8.  But the opportunity to sit with a tulip glass full of steaming Turkish tea beside the body of water I love more than any other in the world is a rare treasure not to be squandered.
It seems that with me, when it comes down to it, I’ll choose “favourite and familiar” over “famous” every time.  And I’m okay with that.

Friday, May 4, 2012

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Celebrity Stalking #1: Ara Güler



The past month has included two trips to Istanbul - one for ear surgery and one for post-op follow up.  A recurring theme during these two trips has been celebrity stalking.  More accurately, my failed attempts at celebrity stalking.  In honour of my recent flops in this arena, I decided to do a three-part series on my mis-adventures tracking famous people in the city.
Ara Güler (photo:  Wikipedia)
Our first specimen:  Turkey's prized photographer, Ara Güler.  He is said to be the seventh greatest photographer in the world (how "they" determine this, I am not sure) and he has been a major source of inspiration for me.  I am a particular fan of his black and white photos from the '50s - '70s in some of Istanbul's poorest and most lively districts, which are also my personal favourite places to photo-roam.  (Check out his work here.)
Just off Istiklal Caddesi below Galatasaray Square is Kafe Ara, below the famous photographer's studio (named after but not owned by him.)  My aim was to see if he'd make an appearance, as he's said to often do in the afternoons.  And if he did, the plan was to ask him if we could go out shooting together sometime.  Presumptuous?  Perhaps.  But sometimes you’ve just gotta ask.
These are "on-the-go" notes, rather than a polished piece.  Enjoy the ride.
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He’s here!  At the table next to mine!
Apparently he has appointments lined up cuz when I got here, a girl was showing him her portfolio, and when another arrived, he said, “There’s my 3 o’clock.”  So...I’ll wait her out and see what happens.  Hopefully when they finish up, he’ll stick around for another çay, and I can at least say hello and shake his hand and see if he seems chatty.
He definitely looks old.  Being born in 1928 would make him....84.  Wow.  I wonder how well he walks?  I’d so love to head over to Zeyrek or Edirnekapı with him to shoot, just to see how he sees and watch how he interacts with his subjects.  
I feel a little like Rory on that Gilmore Girls episode when she meets Christiane Amanpour.  She doesn’t believe when her mom calls her to come to the inn and see who’s there, so she shows up still in her PJs.  
I don’t exactly look the part of a world class photographer just now, wearing a hoodie and with my ear all bandaged up, but there you go.  I have no idea what to say, but I’m sure I can manage, “Hi,” and, “I’m a big fan of your work.”
I really like this cafe and its atmosphere.  It’s sort of a split level place, with the back half being a raised loft that sits over the kitchen.  All the pipes and air ducts are exposed, but with the wood floors and banisters, the feel is more warm and friendly than cool and metallic.  White globe lights hang from the ceiling and matching half-ones are mounted on the walls between prints of some of Güler’s black and white Istanbul photos, all in black and white.  A small glass vase of pink and white carnations each table - a welcome sign of a long-awaited spring.  
Several shelves and ledges are decorated with antique telephones, old thermometers, bright red milk pitchers and old kettles of various shapes, sizes and colours. There’s one light blue one with white polka-dots that I particularly love.  And there’s this great bundle of cezves (Turkish coffee pots) tied together and hanging from the ceiling over the door to the kitchen.  A window-y display case looks through to the kitchen and is crowded full of tiny tea pots, cups and mugs, all solid colours - bright tin-like one’s that might have had a previous life in an American diner in the ‘60s.  
Plenty of Louis n’ Ella, Frank and Dean, and a lot of big band music make me think I could stay here all day.  
Piles of photographers keep walking in, armed with mile-long lenses and confident expressions on their faces.  This is clearly the place to gather, or be seen, or both.  I wonder if they’re all lined up to see Mr. Güler, too.  
I asked my waiter if I need an appointment to meet The Man, and he said no, that I should just wait til he’s done with his friends and then he’ll see if he can get me a few minutes.  
There’s a table where all the Long Lenses are sitting, and among them is a girl who I think might be his assistant.  She’s been there since just after I came, intimidating me simply with her presence and her air.  I wonder if I’m supposed to go through her...  Thankfully my waiter’s really sweet and normal.  I think I’ll pass on her and stick with him.
My lunch (yes, I’ve been sitting here that long) was yummy, if not a bit pricey.  Well, actually, in dollars, I guess it really wasn’t.  I had a sage-dill-walnut-white cheese pasta dish that I really enjoyed.  (And, yes, I checked - no greens in my teeth.)  People whose reviews I read online raved about the homemade lemonade with mint leaves, but I wasn’t such a fan.  Too tart and too sweet all at the same time.
Okay, I’m really battling fear and intimidation here.  And I’m feeling a little dizzy.... Apparently the drugs that knocked me out for the operation haven’t quite left my system.  Surely a cup of coffee will flush them out.   And calm me down.
Yes, this latte is doing the trick.  Funny, I’ve seen several people drinking what looks like Nescafe in Turkish tea cups.  I thought that was a total no-no.  Maybe it’s “socially unacceptable” if you do it at home to serve guests, but “creative presentation” if you pay lots for it at a trendy cafe.  
Okay, his “friends” are leaving.  Are there others in line?  Maybe not.  Do I just walk over?  Nope, someone else already did.  Dangit!
Maybe I’ll just keep writing about the decor til they all leave.  Colourful painted plates hang on several walls - some in the traditional Ottoman Iznik style, others more plain and modern....
Seriously, how long should I sit here?  On the one hand, I’m sad not to be out gezzing (exploring), though I know I do still have tomorrow if I want to come back.  On the other hand, leaving feels like quitting and giving in to fear, and I certainly don’t want to give in to that either.
Intimidating Girl and the guy at the table with her appear to be leaving, which gives me great hope.  Now I just have to wait out the guy at the table with Mr. Güler.  I can do that.  I’ll just keep ordering more tea.
Okay, continuing with the play-by-play...  He got out some cash, which made me think he was leaving.  (Do you suppose he has to pay to eat at the restaurant named after him?)  Oh, now two more people joined him.
Oof.  I’m really not good at this “stalking famous people” thing.  And my bladder can’t hold any more tea.  Should I just try again tomorrow?  
Intimidating Girl is gone now.  But so is my nice waiter.  Hmm.
Would it be rude to just tap him on the shoulder and say hi as I leave?  Oh, the questions!


Okay.  I’m going to leave.  Not because I’m scared (at least, not entirely), but because I don’t want to spend my entire day drinking pricey tea.  Forget meeting a famous photographer - I’m going to go out and shoot some famous photos of my own.  I think that’s what he’d want me to do anyway.  :)


**If you squint real hard, you can see Ara Güler
 himself, just inside, under the "Açık" ("Open")
 sign.  Clearly, I was not cut out for the paparazzi life!





Friday, May 04, 2012 - No comments

The Other Side

(written March 28th, on the Kadıköy - Karaköy ferry)


I'm FINALLY feeling up to gezzing (loosely translated, roaming or exploring) after being cooped up in the house for a week following my surgery.  Got out of the house a little later than planned, but was glad for the extra time with my "little sister."  It's a properly gray Istanbul day, with either the threat of rain or the promise of sunshine - it's hard to say.  


I've been lying on the couch all week, dreaming up places to go see once I felt alive enough. Much as I love to roam around the neighbourhoods of Fatih (the heart of the old city) amongst the immigrants and the gypsies and the crumbling city walls, I don't think I'm quite up to it just yet.  I'm more in the mood for something a little nicer, but still unfamiliar, and the area around Taksim/Beyoğlu won out.


It's not my favourite area, in that it's crowded and full of tourists, "Bohemian Turks" and rich people.  I prefer the quieter, less affected districts on the Asian shore better myself.  But if I am going to profess to love Istanbul, I really should explore all of it, even the bits that don't fit my cherished but lopsided image of the city.


The truth is, when I think about strolling around in places like Cihangir, Teşvikiye or Nişantaşı, I don't feel classy enough or hip enough to fit in.  I feel like I'll be an underdressed American who is sorely out of place in the uppity parts of Paris.  Granted, looking like a tourist probably buys me some grace.  But when I think of myself as a Turk, I don't feel "worthy" of those neighbourhoods.  


(There's got to be some "royalty in disguise" heart lesson to be uncovered here somewhere....)


As a photographer, though, and even moreso as a writer, I really need to get over this fear of places I don't fit in and people who are "higher class" than me.  It's easy for me to feel confident in Fatih, where I am a wealthy foreign novelty, but Istanbul's trendier districts are a whole different ballpark.  


And so I head to the other side.  Here's to a day of overcoming fear....



Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Wednesday, April 11, 2012 - 1 comment

History vs. the Wrecking Ball



I can see my old bedroom window from here.

I used to lean out of it at dusk, between the call to prayer and the call for dinner, trying to gather up fresh energy for the night of “what-did-you-learn-today” and sunflower seeds and three-hour soap operas ahead. During those first months as a student of all things Turkish, it took all my energy to stay engaged in mealtime conversation with my host family and try to make sense of the unfamiliar culture I was attempting to fit into. I so often wanted to hide away in my room, but the fact that I shared it with my extroverted eighteen year old “sister” made it quite the opposite of a haven. When she wasn’t moaning about having nothing to wear or whispering into her cell phone until all hours, she was peering over the top of the bunk bed we shared, asking why I had to study so much.

Those moments with my head stuck out the window were my salvation. Even when the air was thick with coal, they were breaths of fresh air to me - momentary escapes that gave me what I needed to go back inside and “be Turkish.”

Mold and rent hikes have prompted my Turkish family to move twice in the six years since we all lived together in that tiny flat, and their current apartment is just one street over from the first one.  I relocated to a different city as soon as I finished language school, but I come back every chance I get.  I stay with them before and after flying in and out of the country, visit for religious holidays, come up for funerals, and let them take care of me after ear surgeries, like the one that brought me here this time.

I am standing in my Turkish mom's kitchen over a pot of bell peppers stuff with rice, dill, onions, currants and fragrant spices. The family is always curious to know what local dishes I’ve learned to make, and I’ve been promising them I’d make dolma ever since I arrived for a visit last week.

Looking across the street at the back of our old apartment building, I feel like a completely different person than that girl who used to have to lean out the window, staring at this same view from the other side, trying to avoid being suffocated by life in this country.  Now, being with them is like being home.  I wish they wouldn’t smoke and they don’t understand why I like so much alone time, but we’re used to each other.  Our nightly ritual of sunflower seeds and Turkish soaps are the most normal thing in the world to me. They even let me make the tea.

Whenever I arrive in town, I take some combination of train/ferry/bus/taxi from the airport to our neighbourhood, and as my suitcase wheels clatter over the uneven pavement, the sense of anticipation and belonging in my heart increases with every step towards home.   I weave my way through football games and smile at women carrying empty water bottles to fill up at the fountain.  I pass the veggie seller and the roasted nut guy, at least one eskici, with his cart full of salvagable “old things” and a handful of gypsies hauling their recyclables to the depot at the bottom of our old street. Men talk in huddles outside cafes as they puff away on cigarettes between games of backgammon and cups of çay. Just before turning onto our street, I particularly enjoy plowing right through the middle of the flock of pigeons that is always congregated in the square, sending wings scattering in all directions.

This is an old neighbourhood of blue collar workers, halfway between the slums and the suburbs, and while the number of headscarves is increasing, the number of piercings and laptop cases is as well. It’s close enough to the shopping-and-entertainment district of Kadıköy to enjoy it, but just far enough away so that the streets are still quiet at night, save for the occasional drunken fistfight. Neighbours still know each other by name, families can still run up a tab at the bakery, and judging by the number of keychains in the cash register at the corner store when I stop in to get the house key, trust has not yet been completely eroded in our corner of this city of 15 million.

On my last two visits I’ve noticed some disturbing new additions to the neighbourhood: signs posted on houses that have been sold to a developer planning to replace these humble homes with luxury high rise apartment buildings. There were just a few when I was here in November, but they’ve multiplied since then, and I was most saddened to see one on our own apartment building’s wall. In the end, the whole district is going to be bulldozed down anyway, so I suppose it was only a matter of time.





Progress and development and modernization are good for a city, I tell myself. Half of these houses are filled with mold and cockroaches anyway. And yet the sight of those signs - I can see four of them from our kitchen window - fills my heart with an aching sense of loss. Come Saturday, I will be on a bus home, and I hate knowing that this may be one of the last times I look out the window onto this street.

These are the streets along which three generations of my Turkish family have come home from work every day. My own family has lived in five different houses in this neighbourhood - three of them since I’ve known them. This is the neighbourhood where my dad smoked his first cigarette and my little sister said her first words. The neighbourhood where I ate my first Ramadan meal, learned to crack sunflower seeds and mastered past and future tense.

The neighbourhood where I first became a Turk.

I think I understand how the old man in "Up" must have felt, staring down the wrecking ball headed for his house, refusing to let his memories be demolished. I wonder how long it would take to blow up a couple million balloons.....